tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.comments2019-06-07T15:34:40.265-06:00through the looking glasscamille nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01899162307159896474noreply@blogger.comBlogger327125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-91590609951609402842018-09-21T18:24:41.865-06:002018-09-21T18:24:41.865-06:00Oh, Cami. I am so incredibly sorry. No one should ...Oh, Cami. I am so incredibly sorry. No one should ever have to go through this. I hope that your sharing will help you to heal. ❤️Michelle Goudgenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-18479230999764037132018-09-21T15:44:52.822-06:002018-09-21T15:44:52.822-06:00Sending you love, strength and healing, you beauti...Sending you love, strength and healing, you beautiful human! Xxxxxxx❤️Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02307792192474365642noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-71261900587963844132018-09-21T12:22:54.144-06:002018-09-21T12:22:54.144-06:00I am so sorry. Nothing can take make this go away,...I am so sorry. Nothing can take make this go away, I guess parts of this will always be with you, like a scar. <br />You are better than you think, and more powerful than you know. This was an awful, horrible thing that should not have happened and your ex husband is a pathetic coward and may his shame follow him forever. Clint Freemannoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-66585983930619421202015-05-01T23:20:28.134-06:002015-05-01T23:20:28.134-06:00Sarah, thanks for the encouragement! I can always ...Sarah, thanks for the encouragement! I can always use Scripture being shoved in my face, even if I'm not thankful for it at the time. ;)<br /><br />Kacie, YES. You put it into words exactly how I wanted too. "...I want ministry and work outside of it. Not in place of it, but outside of it. Unfortunately I feel so useless, so careerless, so insecure about what I can do, so unqualified. I compare myself to my husband, and I get frustrated when I feel like he and everyone naturally encourage his career but assume that mine will work itself out with time, and I should just be patient with this motherhood stage. I wish people would fight for my work too, you know?"<br /><br />One hundred times yes. I'm still wrestling with this. I'm not even sure I know who I AM outside of mother and wife, and that scares me, because I've got to be something apart from those two. But I feel like this is such a common thing, and I should just ride it out and wait to "find myself", if you will. Except that I don't want to wait, and I don't think that's a healthy response--I don't want my daughter to grow up thinking that being a good mom and wife means giving up every iota of your being to that. I want her to have dreams, and goals, and passions, and to pursue them to her hearts content, even while she falls in love and gets married and has babies.camille nicolehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01899162307159896474noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-33076087676191932172015-04-28T07:37:30.437-06:002015-04-28T07:37:30.437-06:00Ah, so much of this is me, and I too can't sto...Ah, so much of this is me, and I too can't stop writing. For me most of it is wrapped around this insatiable need to know that I am meaningful. I want to know that my life is meaningful, my work is meaningful, I am useful, I am succeeding. <br /><br />Motherhood is overwhelming, and I want ministry and work outside of it. Not in place of it, but outside of it. Unfortunately I feel so useless, so careerless, so insecure about what I can do, so unqualified. I compare myself to my husband, and I get frustrated when I feel like he and everyone naturally encourage his career but assume that mine will work itself out with time, and I should just be patient with this motherhood stage. I wish people would fight for my work too, you know? <br /><br />So - still processing the whole motherhood and work thing. I also know that the search for finding meaning in my own "success" is such a Western individualism and can only end in insecurity. There should be a contentment with obedience to Christ, no matter which roles that works itself into in daily life. <br /><br />But those are lessons I'm still learning and wrestling with. Kaciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06374573594800663980noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-54727915597053349362015-04-16T19:09:50.885-06:002015-04-16T19:09:50.885-06:00You aren't alone! I find, during seasons of fe...You aren't alone! I find, during seasons of feeling so "fleshly" in my desires, inadequacies and General "blahness" about life, that Romans 8 is super helpful for me. I don't want to shove scripture in your face, but instead gently point you toward encouragement. I'd also love to chat with you via. Facebook messenger if you're interested. :) xoxoSarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18180785277514225607noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-18226870036473472972014-11-25T14:47:31.392-07:002014-11-25T14:47:31.392-07:00I love this, and I love you. Please keep writing, ...I love this, and I love you. Please keep writing, about everything and nothing; who cares when you're great at it? Because you are.Elise Loyola Mancehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01197083279588195058noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-15932815033314563582014-04-16T12:27:23.048-06:002014-04-16T12:27:23.048-06:00how beautiful! 42 weeks...that is an amazing accom...how beautiful! 42 weeks...that is an amazing accomplishment. I don't know if I could do it! bethany tabhttp://www.bethanytab.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-16952168388446708982014-04-16T12:22:33.271-06:002014-04-16T12:22:33.271-06:00I have thought about this dynamic a lot. With one ...I have thought about this dynamic a lot. With one child, I've been able to hold onto a bit of myself, but I feel really strongly that when we have two I'm going to have to dive in completely and hold onto nothing of my old self. I'm afraid to have two!Bethany Tabhttp://www.bethanytab.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-22881683222797441332014-03-06T20:49:26.277-07:002014-03-06T20:49:26.277-07:00Love this. And so hear you. Love this. And so hear you. Kirrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13087806734364787042noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-18368742930346631062014-02-21T13:02:07.729-07:002014-02-21T13:02:07.729-07:00Hey there. I've read a few of your blogs (I...Hey there. I've read a few of your blogs (I'm a friend of your hubs from Kent in the UK!) and I want to encourage you - you express yourself so elegantly and put into words thoughts I've had but have been unable to pinpoint. We had a son in October last year and I'm finding it a blend of absolutely awesome and absolutely the most difficult thing I could imagine. So keep writing - even if it's about motherhood all the time, because if anything else... It's encouraging for people like me! All the best with you and your family. Say hi to your husband from me! Robyn xRobynhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01940035498521607528noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-73267870364379136592014-02-16T21:10:45.917-07:002014-02-16T21:10:45.917-07:00Lady we need to get together for lunch or somethin...Lady we need to get together for lunch or something asap! PS I know exactly how you feel. Two kids is hard! Kari Kotterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16297672772507208186noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-46922838719101003572014-01-03T15:34:21.160-07:002014-01-03T15:34:21.160-07:00Love love love. Sounds great! I have so much respe...Love love love. Sounds great! I have so much respect for you for waiting until 42+1. I honestly don't know if I could...but look at the great birth you had because she was ready!Rachhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00539628551735497651noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-84783832368207130722013-12-07T20:30:23.978-07:002013-12-07T20:30:23.978-07:00Oh! I LOVE this Cammie girl. Oh! I LOVE this Cammie girl. Kirrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13087806734364787042noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-80889366800128465282013-07-29T20:24:08.013-06:002013-07-29T20:24:08.013-06:00Oh Cami. I've been there - am there - with the...Oh Cami. I've been there - am there - with the screaming toddler. It is so hard to parent with kindness, firmness, and grace in public. Just remind yourself that the same independent spirit and strong will that drives. you. nuts. right now will come in handy when your 15 year old is sure enough of himself to resist negative peer pressure. At least that's what I try to tell myself...Rachhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00539628551735497651noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-15780154255145803362013-07-16T17:20:22.101-06:002013-07-16T17:20:22.101-06:00So, the adventure begins- it will take you places ...So, the adventure begins- it will take you places you can not imagine- but when you look back you will know there was no other way you could have gone. :)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03050023905290548174noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-54614106632402671312013-07-01T22:53:53.446-06:002013-07-01T22:53:53.446-06:00Yes. Yes. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04619797629619163832noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-18818305482965858612013-06-24T16:33:07.252-06:002013-06-24T16:33:07.252-06:00Great blog post. Don't get discouraged or let ...Great blog post. Don't get discouraged or let anyone down you as a mom! You are the best mom for your son and are doing a great job! These tough years will pass and leave only sweet memories of your baby boy. keep on truckin!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-4750920711989744992013-06-19T23:55:12.079-06:002013-06-19T23:55:12.079-06:00Not to mention there are many benefits to cosleepi...Not to mention there are many benefits to cosleeping... not just staying rested. We have been co sleeping since the beginning and Israel is now four. Sounds like you guys are gonna need a bigger bed!Sarah Bolocanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01864437567013315889noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-14874824076039133032013-06-19T14:30:03.569-06:002013-06-19T14:30:03.569-06:00Oh my goodness. I think this is something that EVE...Oh my goodness. I think this is something that EVERY mom learns at some point or another. The sooner the better! We're hard enough on ourselves--we don't need anyone else telling us the same things we tells ourselves all the time. The mommy-guilt is hard to squelch. Thanks for sharing Cami.<br />~Morgan<br />morganmotz.blogspot.comMorganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03181381518146210212noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-40264281328263689502013-06-17T12:56:35.823-06:002013-06-17T12:56:35.823-06:00"Learning to live satisfied in the mediocrity..."Learning to live satisfied in the mediocrity of life, because that's where you spend the majority of your time, and if you can't be happy there, you won't be happy anywhere."<br /><br />I like this a lot. It's so true.Rachhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00539628551735497651noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-35233337016168016992013-05-29T15:19:10.859-06:002013-05-29T15:19:10.859-06:00Yeah. I have no answer. I wish there was one. I ha...Yeah. I have no answer. I wish there was one. I have wanted to be at home for a year, but mostly because I feel like my kid has wanted and maybe needed his mamma, and so I have huge mamma guilt that I haven't been able to be at home. <br /><br />However, after my second is born, I WILL be at home full time and the truth is that I'm terrified, because I have no idea if I'm even good at being a full-time at home parent, and I'm afraid of feeling totally lonely and unfulfilled. Kaciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06374573594800663980noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-38902006843611054532013-05-01T15:26:22.097-06:002013-05-01T15:26:22.097-06:00Hey, me too on some of that! I'm just starting...Hey, me too on some of that! I'm just starting the second trimester and have struggled with the changes to my body, doing all of this in an office, and it not being all new and wonderful like the first one. I'm just not sure how I'll do as a mom of two. <br /><br />To a certain extent I think I'm just plowing ahead practically thinking, I'm going to love it when it gets here, and I'll just survive, step by step. We'll see. Kaciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06374573594800663980noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-14224838135054161092013-04-05T10:19:45.123-06:002013-04-05T10:19:45.123-06:00Yes, yes, yes, a million times over. I love you fo...Yes, yes, yes, a million times over. I love you for writing this, and I feel the same.Elise Loyola Mancehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01197083279588195058noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4242624993628806583.post-69938431806558673162013-03-29T19:15:51.800-06:002013-03-29T19:15:51.800-06:00So true- heaven is our real home, the only place w...So true- heaven is our real home, the only place where all our heart fragments will be restored, where all our goodbyes become hello and see you- forever! To walk through this world with a touch of melancholy and restlessness is the appropriate response of a homesick heart. Yet, what glory and joy there is in this world, just glimpses of the one to come!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03050023905290548174noreply@blogger.com