day 18 [round two]
>> 1.18.2013
Day 18
Meal 1: 2 sausages, 3 eggs, coffee w/creamer
Post-Wo: 1 fried egg
Meal 2: Garbage stir-fry, 1 fried egg, 1 sweet potato, apple
Meal 3: 3 fried chicken legs, brussel sprouts, 3/4 orange, herbal tea
Do you know what is a really craptastic thing to do to someone on a whole30?
Ask them to bake cookies that they have to roll out and stick their thumb in, but can't eat (or even lick their fingers from). Pure, unadulterated torture.
This round two has been hard, guys. Hard in a weird way. I feel like it's getting harder as it goes on, which is pretty much the opposite way it went the first time around. I'm annoyed. I don't get why I have to have such a twisted relationship with food, and even though I know that it's a symptom of a deeper, underlying issue having to do with perfection and thinking I won't ever measure up, it's exhausting to try and fight all the time.
It's strange because I feel like "following the rules" has gotten easier--I'm better at cooking, I know what ingredients to go for, I've got plenty of recipes and go-to meals, I can order for myself when we go out and not eat the rogue cheesecake sitting there--but I cannot get over the desire I have to eat 4 sweet potatoes at 10 p.m. and how much I have to analyze it.
Whatever.
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